Insecure Writer's Support Group time ... how fitting it should fall on the second letter for the A to Z Challenge.
I've made no secret about me releasing two books this month and I find myself getting increasingly nervous. I mean seriously nervous, worst than when Dark One's Mistress came out, but then, that sort of popped up whilst I was trying to participate in Nanowrimo and fight off a particularly nasty flu. And I'm strangely okay with Golden Dawn.
It's how The Rogue King will be greeted that's got me more than a little apprehensive.
Throughout the long time I've held this story close - seventeen years now - carefully teasing out the heart until I came to publishing, I've never had a hateful comments thrown at me about it and the cynical side of me waits for them to come.
I try to keep the dreads at bay by going over what I know: several people who have never read fantasy say they didn't expect to enjoy it, but still did. And there was that one guy who said the first few chapters reminded him of a famous (and very much departed) author.
I also know that not everyone will like it. I don't like some of the popular stories so who am I to expect unanimous cheer? I also keep hearing the last small publisher and how they claimed it unmarketable (I also hear they went under, so maybe I dodged the bullet). That last thought brings a strange mixture of rage and anxiety. It was, after all, the final straw that lead me to self publishing.
But have I let it blind me? I didn't run headlong into this decision, it's taken over a year of research and I've run the gamut of editing. Or is it just me letting the butterflies take over?